Interesting Tuesday

Today was one of those days. Not only did someone steal my money from my rack, but they also stole my id. Which i find to be completely useless, unless the point was to make me upset. They definately achieved it with that.

So to add on to my frustration i had anger management right after i found out about my id. And what do you have to have in order to go on base.....yea thats right your ID.

I made it to my anger management though. And it wasnt really as bad as i thought it would be. I liked talking to the guy. Even though im sure i came off as more than a tad...bitchy. Everything was pretty okay until they brought up counseling. So now i have anger management, stress management, AND counseling. What a combination in my life.

At first i was more than a little angry but then i got over it because i probably need it. So im trying to keep positive. Its only working a little bit. Im trying to find other ways to let my anger out besides going crazy on people.

Any ideas?

Keeping Myself in Check

So maybe im a little "overly aggressive". Okay ill own up to that. But i dont think that's cause to send me to mandatory anger management. Really now? Because what is anger management going to do for me besides make me what? ANGRY. But maybe im the only sane person on my ship?

So i have made a deal with myself. Yes, i have to reason with myself to get things done! I am going to try, key word here is TRY. And keep my temper and my attitude under control. I will attempt to not cuss, yell, argue (for a long period of time), with anyone on the ship. I will most likely not last more than a few days, if not a few hours. But i am going to try, and i think thats what matters. :)

Any thoughts on this?

Oh! And im currently checking out

Emotional

I cry when i get too emotional now.
I didnt used to be like this.
Makes me wonder if i still have my visciousness?
Nevermind i know i do.
Otherwise i wouldnt think about killing the crew.
Visciousness and hindsight,
What a combination in my life.

Descions

Descions, Descions
Oh! The choices i could make.
Are mostly horrible
And ultimately decide my fate.
I'm angry
All the time
And its really
Hard to find
A medium.
The descions i make today,
Effect tomorrow.
And by telling me i have no choice,
Nor a voice
Doesnt help the matter.
Doesnt help me think
So ill wash my hands in the sink.
Look in the mirror
And hope my ship sinks.



A little Dramatic i know. But that was my feeling for the day.
Eh...this is a...thing...a thought mostly. Yea...its a thought.

Japanese Taxi Drivers

I realize that i am a foriegner. I realize that i dont speak Japanese. But DAMN IT! What is the point of going 20 miles per hour or less in a taxi? And its not for the money because some, and i mean some taxi drivers drive like they are supposed to. Which is like what 40 to 50 miles per hour. Which i guess is speeding to everyone else. I would just appreciate it if they would speed it up. I know they probable hate Americans. But fuck! Dont pick us up then. I might as well walk back to my ship long as a damn taxi takes. And to top it all off these fuckers act like i cant count and ALWAYS short me at least 100 to 150 yen. WHAT are you about to buy with 150 yen? A donut? What? Makes me crazy sometimes......but...this is just a thought.